I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm waking up basically every morning to nightmares about therapy. Not just that one time with the guy with no ethics, but the times I spent with therapists that meant well. I need help, I need something beyond just a place to vent. But I don't know where to turn. I feel like therapy isn't the right place to discuss how horrifyingly traumatic therapy has been for me and how to get past that. But no one has any suggestions or help past "maybe more therapy?"